I'm sooo excited, nervous, scared...all sort of feelings washing over me,lolx...tis coming week will be a "do or die" mentality week, all the ideas, preparations etc will be set to task tis week, now suddenly quite scared...loads of wat ifs come swimming in my mind...:x hmmm i need to calm down, been too emo n tired out today, need to recharge n renew myself soon...lolx okok muz go rest go rest, tmr onwards a bizbizbizbizbiz week ahead!God grant us all e strength to go thru:D

"There is a time for everything,and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,a time to embrace and a time to
refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,a time for war and a time for peace."
Ecclesiastes3:1-8

Was reading these verses tis morn then got reminded of the purpose of our lives in tis world..been reading on e conflicts of many diff countries all ard the world; wars,disputes,deaths n sufferings by e innocents n soldiers alike,etc etc...all tis seems so cruel:X but the verses reminded me tt God intended all things for a purpose,n who m i to say He's good or cruel or unfair etc,i can onli do my part well in tis temporary world while i wait for the eternity...

On a more relaxed note, statistics have shown tt more than 50% of the students i had taught or m still teaching have broken down in tears b4:S lolx m i a bad teacher?a fierce and insensitive "old" guy or m i simply imcompetent??:( hmmm wanna apologise to all who had or r still suffering in my hands,mebe i should consider changing lines man,lolx:X A BIG SORRI TO ALL OF YA!Hope ya all can c its for ya own good...

P.S. I'm out of time to do my project!!argh i need MORE time!:'(

"Is there, is there a place,
in your arms of love, strong enough?
would you carry us, carry us through?"

If anione i noe is not in my link,a thousand apologies coz i juz sort of revive my blog recently so still figuring out how to find ppl etc,will take some time to find n link ya all:D Btw e next two months will reallie be berybery biz,sometimes i tink to myself is it i "mei shi zao shi zhuo" make myself so stressed up-_- but i noe wat i'm doing is not a coincidence,so pls God,lead me thru all tis kkz:) and to all my students,pls JIAYOU n remember,influence ya frens,not be influenced by them:)

"O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water." Psalms63:1

helpless...in tis degraded society...helpless to do anithing,helpless to make a difference...m i reallie a historymaker 4 God,or juz going wif e flow of tis corrupted world??my heart aches,is in great pain for e loss of souls ard me,yet i cant do anting to stem e tide,on n on it goes till eventually God's judgement arrives...i'm utterly useless......

"Listen to my prayer, O God, do not ignore my plea;
hear me and answer me. My thoughts trouble me and
I am distraught at the voice of the enemy, at the
stares of the wicked; for they bring down suffering
upon me and revile me in their anger.
My heart is in anguish within me; the terrors of
death assail me. Fear and trembling have beset me;
horror has overwhelmed me." Psalm55:1-5

i feel sooo weak n helpless,not physically but in other aspects:( wat i shouldn't do i do n wat i should do,more often than not i dun do:s now then i sort of understand more of wat apostle Paul said:"For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do." Romans7:15 mani ppl ard me facing difficulties,yet powerless to help them...sometimes i reallie wsh God can bring me back into His presence n leave tis sinful world behind-_- but i noe each of us has a purpose in tis world,juz tt it is too much to bear at times...my worldly being is taking over my senses at times,its unbearable,unbearable...i feel lonely in tis battle, i cant take it much much longer,n i dunno wat to do...life..wat is e real meaning of it??..

hi ppl juz a short post:D i'm at my fren's hse doing recording for songs but now mental block so stuck-_-" aniwae wanna apologise to all my students who i tuitioned tis past daes :s been having mental block since coming out of reservist,so mebe couldn't teach well,will try to get back to normal soon!!:D

In the end everything will be good
If it's not good,it's not the end yet.
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

manimani tots dunno how to put to words,so quote tis lyrics from e song "Amazing Grace"

P.S. Its a wonderful wonderful and extremely touching song:D

"AMAZING GRACE, HOW SWEET THE SOUND
THAT SAVED A WRETCH LIKE ME!
I ONCE WAS LOST, BUT NOW AM FOUND
WAS BLIND, BUT NOW I SEE"


The story behind tis song was bery beautifully touched too,share wif ya all next time:)

FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YES ppl i'm finally BACK from ICT!!!It was super duper tough and worse of all,was sooo sick till nearly fainted and dehydrate:( but aniway got home safely le,gee:D well,dun reallie wanna tok abt wat happened ah,lolx hmmm been tinking over tis past few weeks,i'll be going over to taiwan tis dec wif a view to staying there next yr ah,nothing's concrete yet but if tings go on smoothly,will be leaving here next yr..quite excited of coz coz can travel!n c e world(ok taiwan) n gain work exp overseas but at e same time a bit sad if gonna leave behind e ppl and stuff here:/ always been contradicting haven i,lolx:s aniwae will update when tings r more concrete:D oh n been working on a project(shhh) recently,actually started out differently but aft some finetuning tots came up wif something i noe tt can be done le,now juz hope by God's grace and e help of all e KIND ppl i haf found n will find,tt tis will be a meaningful n lasting success:D(ppl all ya efforts may God reward personally:D) haha on a lighter note,i'm trying to lose weight!!haha noe been harping on n on abt it since like few yrs ago(roll eyes),lolx:si need DETERMINATION n less TEMPTATION!!!hahahahha sleep wears away hunger!lolx:D hahaha tis so like a random post,haha n i dunno how to upload more PICS to my blog:( ani kind souls come to my aid kkz,thx!:D


P.S. i LUV delirious,they rox!:D

haha everyone a belated b-dae to our nation:D yest was spent so meningfully,went to rush to get all my stuff for upcoming field camp(:s) then met up wif my fren for late lunch then went for fellowship:D we had prayer session:) n actually was quite glad e xie's house dun haf a tv coz we can all pray n focus though was bery tired and haf a wonderful time of sharing over dinner wif bros and sis:D gotta say was quite sianz initially due to my reservist and e upcoming "S" field camp but then tot over a lot during e session..will try to view it positively ba..:) saw e news of war bwt russia and georgia n was quite sad,is it reallie e end of times,when war occurs bwt countries and diasters striking in many places..e innocent ppl killed just for e sake tt political figures can get "regions" back under their control..human lives seem so worthless in tis times,when self satisfaction is considered more imptance of than e well-being of others who is e same as us;God's creation. wat rite do we haf to destroy wat God created,but tts wat we r doing..:( we can onli pray and keep praying for God's mercy to keep us from His wrath,we dun deserve anyting at all...

When u pray,
its u e one in need.
Not God in need
2 wan u 2 tell Him:D

P.S. mission launchers aren't fun at all:/

Hahaha hello ppl!super loooong din post le:s nearly forgot how to type:p hmmm quite weird too long le dunno how to start......anyway i'm in reservist!!!its yucky n tough one tis time round*sobz*:(
anyway will try to update wheneva i can online,nearly forget how to log in juz now,lolx*roll eyes*:p
miz my civilian life man,ict HURRY ends!!!!well,everyone take loads carez ba,hope to c ya all soon:D

When u pray,
its u e 1 in need.
Not God in need
2 wan u 2 tell Him:D

P.S. I'll be done on e 20th so onli contact me aft tt kkz:D