Hey hey! Hahaha past few days been sooo tired and slack and busy?lolx-_-" Hmmm had great fun on friday playing though ended up with severe pains then saturday was sooo boring at home, unwell so didn't go sentosa, sorry people!-_- Yesterday was super super super TIRING! Hahaha Realised I'm indeed old in some ways, kept forgetting e script and some lyrics, lolx-_-" Haha pool was fun(though below par) and market food is the best!!!!! Alright not the best but one of my favourites! Hahahaha then went home and was like falling asleep while watching tv-_- I slept at 10plus, can you imagine, 10plus! Omg I'm becoming OLD!!!:( Hahaha shall not think about that anymore, now whole body still aching-_-" struggling whether to go for tonight's sermon...:s

Hahaha two days of slacking and stone-ing at home, finally going out today again, hahaha:p Been such a good boy these few days, even if I said so myself, ha:D Not much motivation to do the things I should man,damn-_-" HAha gotta try bery bery hard to force some discipline in me, I need DISCIPLINE!!! Later going see my little rascals(opps, little angels-_-) again, haha they finally holidays! Lolx but some like quite sad, lolx HAha nevermind people, we'll have much fun and learning this coming December kkz:D Oh and I still waiting for my buffet! I wanna eat eat eat till i drop:p:p And i may be going church camp!lolx Oh and i bought a NEW mp3, hahaha yes a NEW one!the old one(2months old-_-") met with some mishap so can't use le, I'll miss ya lots mp3!!! Hahaha but i love my NEW one too, super cool, hahaha:D Yay soccer later, now go slack some more first, bb!:D

Wah so fast so many days didn't post le-_- These few days can say many many things happened and end up result in many consequences:( I suddenly feel bery alone, like my mask is falling off and i'm more and more exposed, exposed to others in ways I don't ever wanna others to even know, but I can't help it, I can't control it, I'm just like a strong trunk that's rotting inside badly, looks good on the outside but it's so weak and fragile it can't stand a blow... I need to stand firm, I really need, I need to stop relying on others for strength, I need to WAKE UP!!!!!.....Am I destined to be like that forever? I don't know, i really don't, but I don't feel anymore strength, the trunk's slowly dying, slowly but surely rotting and fading away till one day its presence will be felt no more and other trees will just take over and it will be forgotten forever and ever...

Hahaha i'm back! Just one day never post only, lolx:p Ok i know i AM lame and old but i'm not an UNCLE kkZ!-_-'' Haha these past 2 days been going out and spending like nobody's business:x Lolx i'm broke again people!hahaha hmmm super tired man but guess when it's going out to have fun etc then won't miss it one:p Hahaha bery tired now so also don't know what i posting,lolx:s Hahaha oh and i owe someone a special message so here you go - "SPECIAL MESSAGE" Aren't i sooo sweet:D:D:D Haha very lame and tired le ah, sorry for those who read this post, it's senseless and crappy,haha:D But i'm one and i love being one!hehehe ok going sleep before turn this into a lamer site, nitez!:D

Haha just sent kr to bus stop and back, ha great result yest rite, so i got my treat! Hahahahahha:p
Yesterday was quite fun, went centre to chat(fun?) then went NYGH(sorry if wrong spelling cause don't know what's the initial:x) to watch some drama performance(fun?), lolx was LAME and was clueless over the story lines -_-'' Haha but i love the last story! Being the emo me, i can understand fully the pain and hurt felt by the role of the dad...Okok maybe it's just a common story but how many times in our lives have we sacrifice and even protect our loved ones only to get misunderstood and hated instead?:( It's difficult being a person who wants to be involved in other's lives sometimes, there are times when the longings for someone to be there for you instead is so strong yet it's always overlooked; Cause of age?maturity?different lifestyles?upbringings?
It's easy to be liked by people or easy to like people? It's easy to listen to people sharing or easy to share with people listening? Wow so emo again like the "monster" in the drama yesterday-_-" Ha time to stop typing, thanks people for all your accompanying though i'm quite irritating and short and old(WHATEVER):p

P.S. oh and supper and ice-cream was nice:D Thanks for your treat!haha:p Next time treat buffet kkz, hahaha:p

Hey just wanna share some thoughts; Whenever i'm down and out and things seemed so wrong and hopeless, God's grace ALWAYS come in different ways, i experienced it countless times and i really wanna say THANK YOU GOD! I know i'm a imperfect human but yet through my imperfection U showed your grace and mercy to me,THANKS:) For those who aren't believers of God, you may not understand what am i talking about but its ok, do share my joy in God too, take carez everyone!:D

Y must all these things fall on me??? Sigh just when i thought i have turned the corner and looking up, the blows just kept coming and coming and i can sense myself breaking and breaking and breaking till i'm no longer a piece, i'm crumbling and falling apart so badly:( I can't summon any more strength to face things again, i don't know how long i can last..these few days a combination of people and events kept me going on but how long, how long more God?? I really don't know what to do, i get depressed easily instead of spurred on and i'm getting more depressed and emo by the day, well done siyang!:s Tomorrow is D-DAY for me, i cant bear to think anymore, whatever that happens tomorrow i tell myself to accept and don't think or regret and blame anyone or God! Please gimme courage and strength, i feel so down and weak now..

Haha after some guidance from spastic ru,finally add a c-box and also got links le, haha thanks,will repay the favour on tues:D Oh today damn tiring man, while singing was like so vexed emotions within and tried so hard to fight back the flowing tears,lolx looked so ugly-_-'' Haha spending time with both cg people and youths are tiring but fun!gee Pool was fun but owning:p (haha jkjk:D) Hmmm got some new insights to my jobs today,share more next time,ok la gotta go zzzz le or else tomorrow can't wake up for work then die:s nitez:D

Hahaha actually got blog last time but well...nvm anyway consider this my 1st blog! At a time like tis when everyone normal is sleeping-_-'' Hmmm can't get to sleep for reasons unknown even to myself, been feeling weird for the past few weeks esp, am i going mad? I hate feeling this way, it so defeats my rational being completely and makes me upset and happy and confused etc all at the same time:( Okay don't spoil my 1st blog on depression,ha Shall try to get some rest for banchang later or else sing off tunes again,lol:s