Wah so fast so many days didn't post le-_- These few days can say many many things happened and end up result in many consequences:( I suddenly feel bery alone, like my mask is falling off and i'm more and more exposed, exposed to others in ways I don't ever wanna others to even know, but I can't help it, I can't control it, I'm just like a strong trunk that's rotting inside badly, looks good on the outside but it's so weak and fragile it can't stand a blow... I need to stand firm, I really need, I need to stop relying on others for strength, I need to WAKE UP!!!!!.....Am I destined to be like that forever? I don't know, i really don't, but I don't feel anymore strength, the trunk's slowly dying, slowly but surely rotting and fading away till one day its presence will be felt no more and other trees will just take over and it will be forgotten forever and ever...